So I'm only a few days away from my first competition prep! And reality is setting in. What if I do it wrong? What if I end up looking like shit? What if I can't afford a decent looking suit? And for christ's sake-- what if I don't win??? I worry too much, I know. But I guess I'm more competitive than I thought I was and I just don't wanna mess this up! I know I'll end up making mistakes. So I know that I'm being a total ass here.
this whole thing is such a mind game sometimes. I've increased my muscularity over the last six months (which was the goal) and my diet is cleaned up so I leaned out a bit (another goal) but sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I think I'm not big enough or striated enough or I think the pudge that's still on my stomach will never go away. Total mind f$&k, right?!? Eek!!!