I thought to myself that 198 was out of reach, given that only 6 weeks ago my max was 176.
Before I started pressing yesterday I thought to myself, "I'm not going to stop until I get the 198 above my head. After I am done today, my new max WILL be 198. No matter what." So I just F%^king did it.
Honestly though, I didn't think it was going to happen.