been having the weirdest fuckin dream:
i would get a phone call from ex-wife's brother - wakes me up....he says something like wtf are you still doing home....your wife is waiting for you to pick her up from (it's a diff place everytime) come up man get up get dressed and go...I would quickly run through the routines, shower, brush my teeth, get dressed, get excited about seeing her (she would be coming back from somewhere - vacation on something...) I would get in the car drive to the airport or somewhere else...as soon as I get there....I'm excited and smiling and I call her, wave at her like an idiot then she looks at me and her eyes tear up...she says: what are you doing here? why do you want to hurt me? what are you trying to do, you leave me and now you're torturing me?? Then I realise what has happened....we're no longer together. I wake up fuckin sweating and in tears....
wtf is going on and wtf am I having these fuckin dreams??