Human Target...

[redguru]

I know who did it before I even posted here. I want to know why

The karma store tells you why I did it.

 

[foreigngirl]

The karma store tells you why I did it.

ah, I understand...lol

 

[H_T_]

I'm back. I was making dinner and watching some TV with the family. They are in bed now. HT, I knew something bad was going on with you. I'm sorry that it was lots worse than I thought. I know that must be awful, and I really wish you had never had to experience something so horrible. I can never imagine what you must have gone through and continue to go through. I sort of pushed the envelope in the area that I knew you were sensitive because I wanted to know the truth of why you were so angrily following me around here. To you, I represent a perverted justice system that betrayed you. It is such an imperfect system. Perhaps I represent women, in general, who have been unkind to you. You deserved none of what has happened and you have a big weight on your shoulders. Should you want to talk sometime, I'm not a terrible listener.

look, i don't mind you firing back at me like that. what kind of bad guy would i be if i couldn't take it? that's never been something i questioned of myself, the question is, can you? you didn't do or say anything wrong. i'm not any more pissed at you than before. that's fair game. i said something about your Mom and you took it, like a big girl should. i'm so cool with it. i just get tired of being reminded (no fault of yours) of how my life used to be so much better. i doubt i've gone thru a pain free day since that night. i've fought addiction a couple of times, vicodins and later on, oxycontins. i was snorting those every day and topping it off with lots of booze. i got a lot of free passes from my cop buddies, they let me get away with a lot of shit for some time. not to mention i almost killed a couple of people over next to nothing. i did like a Travis Bickle-like transformation. i shaved my head, got numerous tattoos, cuz i didn't care anymore, i had things on my body i didn't want (scars) and what would it matter if i covered myself in ink?
i got real bad with the guns. i never owned a gun before i went thru this, now i had over a dozen. everywhere thru my house i hid them and i answered my front door many times with a revolver in my hand after that. `nother thing that fucked me up was not being able to do the work i was used to. i had a spinal injury, so i wasn't allowed to lift more than 10 lbs. what a fucking shock this was. i mean, 10 lbs??? i was put on assistance for some time, but what that meant was that i got 123 dollars every 2 weeks and $80 in food stamps a month. i guess i had to start cutting early that year. i got a job as a janitor and it was in a cancer treatment center. uhhhh, i can't explain what a downer it was working there. seeing these little kids with needles in their arms, sitting in these little chairs. every night i would walk between the chairs and drip bags and pick up candy wrappers, and i'd think, i wonder if he/she will live.
i've just been over-exposed to death. maybe i obsess over it. i remember when my dad died and the coroner was removing his body, they moved him out like he was a fucking couch. lifting and twisting and turning, real akward. it just made me think of it as business, like hey, here's whats coming your way.

i lost a pretty great girl over this, too. she was a year older than me and had never had anyone in her family die while she was alive. i've never heard of that. and when her 90 something Grampa was going to kick it, she was freaking out, hysterical like. i was a complete dick. i was basically like, what, you think he was gonna live for fucking ever? which he did, imo. i wanna end this now, cuz i have another thread i wanna make......

 

[H_T_]

I've always thought you very cool and I gathered that through my time spent here at EF "reading your posts..." I can honestly tell you I found it interesting you mentioned never posting a pic or avi shot of yourself, because it never even crossed my mind. I always saw the buddy Jesus from Dogma and knew it was you, well...I mean your EF persona. I never even clicked on your gallery to see what was in there. Its sometimes possible to get a reflection of what people would be like in real life if you read their posts and then read between the lines. You would be a person who I imagine is enjoyable in real life, as you are here......

...so I'm glad you're are.

it's no wonder why you are a success, when you put that kind effort into the things you do and say.

 

[foreigngirl]

HT, I'm coming to visit you at work. Thats it. I wanna see your face.

 

[H_T_]

HT, I'm coming to visit you at work. Thats it. I wanna see your face.

i look great from the neck up.

 

[foreigngirl]

i look great from the neck up.

All I ever wanted to see was your face. Stop telling me its only from neck up, mkay? Cause you wont after I will be done beating you You work day shifts ever?

edit - beating you up.

I dont know whats wrong with me and my writing lately..lol

 

[Frisky]

i look great from the neck up.

anyone who would ever judge you by your looks is shallow and doesn't deserve your kindness. Remember that

 

[eat big]

I edited your photo.
I know you know better.

And for the record:
1 - that was an anus
2 - those were a man's hands

Velvett

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What a coincidence, I'll be editing your photo too.


Emperor Wootool

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This could be the funniest post I've read in a while,

 

[H_T_]

anyone who would ever judge you by your looks is shallow and doesn't deserve your kindness. Remember that

hey you, i ain't seen you all day....