Yeah bro, dont get easily discouraged, look at your goal as in long term, dont think by getting back on for one time your troubles are gone and all will get accomplished by it.
Train hard, eat right, train even harder.........................nobody on this thread is flaming you, we are all here for one reason and that is to look good and feel good about ourselves.
AAS's arent the Answer to your problem but could very well be a part of the answer if you do everything right and FOCUS on what is important to you. All the best in reaching your goal, post some pics and stats about yourself and lets us on your progress bro.................