Cali's Road to the big 4-0

[figurechamp]

Pretty sad when you gotta scroll down to the bottom of the page to find your log!!

Mine has decidedly been lagging lately. I'll spare you all the excuses....my head just hasn't been in it. I didn't care, I didn't want to work out, drinking too much, days of not eating, days of eating crap....just not in the headspace AT ALL!!

The beauty about being on the bottom is that there is always room to improve and this is my week of starting over....AGAIN!

Saturday is 15 weeks to my 40th. I have plenty of time to get myself in great shape for then if I get back on track and refocused, which I'm happy to say is starting to happen. The days of the douche bag diet are done!!

Monday was a holiday here and I spent an hour outside, down in the river valley, hiking on the trails. It felt good to be outside and get some cardio in.

Yesterday I hit the gym and trained legs. I went pretty light but had the shaky, jello feeling leaving.

I also found out that Canada is bringing in the physique category this year, which really interests me. So, I may be re-evaluating my goal to compete and the category.

Lol! I've been lagging on posting too. We gotta bring our shit back to the top of the list!!!

Glad ur gettin back at it. No more douche for u!!!

 

[caligirl85]

Just a quick update here....work has been another week of gong show stuff and I've been working extra hours so my logging time is limited.

I've had a great week though and have been in the gym 3 days so far (with the goal of 5 days). I've trained arms, chest and back with 20 mins of cardio each day.

I'm also happy to say I've finally started a true diet! It doesn't really feel like a diet because I'm eating more then I was on the douche bag diet but....feels good to have a plan. My target right now is 2000 calories with a macro break down of 50/30/20 p/ch/f. I'll post up more details later.

It's amazing how even a couple days can make such a difference in how you feel. I was eating soooo poorly and just felt like crap! Always good to remind yourself what bad eating feels like.

 

[dmk777]

Hey Cg. Glad to see you back and focused , good news too on the diet ,
Ok so I know you can do this so I'm going to look forward to following you making your goals!!

 

[caligirl85]

Hey Cg. Glad to see you back and focused , good news too on the diet ,
Ok so I know you can do this so I'm going to look forward to following you making your goals!!

Thanks Donna!!

Canada's bodybuilding nationals are in our city this year and there's a few competitors at my gym that are getting ready. It's always so motivating talking to someone getting ready to compete and it's been that extra boost I needed!

 

[caligirl85]

Had a good chest workout today. I'm pretty sore tonight...overall sore! LOL Feels good!

I'll start getting my workouts back up in more depth too.

Have a great Saturday night!

 

[dmk777]

Great job Cg nice to see your still killing it

 

[obsessedwliftin]

Good to see this cali! Btw did you get my email woman? Lol

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[RachelM]

Hey Cali, love that sore feeling.. good to hear your back!!!

 

[caligirl85]

Well.....this log has been pretty freakin pathetic!!

Ladies, I've had 3 1/2 months of hell. No matter how hard I have tried to keep this log going, it just wasn't working. It's amazing to me that in a city of about a million people, give or take, I seem to be able to find the one psycho to have a relationship with and even though it ended in January....I'm still dealing with it! It's been police, protection orders, and so on. Add on to that a car accident at the end of March (which wasn't my fault, thank God) and I'm now, hopefully, on the road to putting my life back together. It's safe to say he is a narcissist and has made my life miserable in leaving him. I'm seeing a psychologist and have finally reached the point where I feel like I can get a plan for my health and fitness. I know some of you have talked about dating this type of personality before but I honestly had no idea how brutal it can really be, especially trying to cut ties. I'm still going through what is almost like a grieving process but am ready to focus more on me and set some short term goals. I have had moments where I literally wondered if I was losing my mind.

I have about a month to my 40th birthday. I'm no where near where I had hoped but I'm going to work hard in May and see where I can get to for June 2. I'm going to do a diet with my parents, believe it or not. They are doing the "17 day day diet" so I figured I'd do it with them and have that extra moral support. In looking through the first phase of it, it's a lot like the last weeks of a contest prep. Carbs from veggies only and high protein. It's unconventional in some ways but I'm gonna give it a go and see what happens in the first 17 days. I need that short time frame so I can feel like I can actually succeed at something!

That being said, my eating is f'ed right up. I've gotten in the bad habit of eating little to nothing during the day and then eating carb heavy crap all evening. I've only gained back about 4 lbs, though, from my previous douche bag diet.

I have the week off, too, and figure it's a great time to start. The beauty of this 17 days is that there is no counting calories or measuring. I just need to lay off the PB and chocolate and have a massive shock to the system but for the first time, in a long time, I'm looking forward and not backward.

 

[Noa]

Good luck You sound very motivated! #take time to focus on yourself, be selfish and focus on your goals! You don't have to worry about that head case anymore.

Great job on only gaining 4lbs, when I go off the rails with my diet it's a disaster! Human sponge!

Nx