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Guys,
Big hello to every one. This is my first post on EF, funny enough this is the first time I am on EF Forum and not desperately trying to find the quick fix for some back acne, hair loss or a puff tit.
My story if of any interest, however it involves SSRIs, AAS, Propecia;
At the time I was 24, all was good. Decent job, friends nothing too special but enough to have a good night while on the drink, and gf at the time was alright. Fast forward two weeks, I was in my bedroom, curtains shut, having called off sick from work and the episode didn't finish until 3 weeks later.
I did leave my house, but that stabbing pain, feeling of worthlessness kept going on. Everything was extremely hard - working, talking, basically caring. So as this escalated my mind started making random thoughts of a morbid nature, so much so, scared the shit out of me. To the doctor I went, ended up on Celexa.
It helped a lot, however the effect was through numbing you. Things didn't matter, or didn't bother me not on account that my self-esteem was high, my confidence strong, simply just didn't care.
In an effort to take control of this I joined my first Gym. Didn't have a clue of what I was doing, but merely hoping to get a dopamine release from the exercise. I never thought Wow!, this is it, it simply grew on me. It became something I needed to do!
Fast-forward 5 years, I ended up in New York for two years. I joined what was probably the best gym I had ever seen. It was in a dark basement, mostly cops came there as it was close to a PD and it was great. Huge, free weights, squat racks, yet no Smith Machine?!
Go well into that , now I am into the mentality,so I start playing around with the idea AAS, however I am worried on account of everything. Hair/Heart/Acne/Injecting/Gear Safety... Nonetheless , found some pharma grade Test and boom, I was in love.
I can't say I was in love with the results, as it was early day's but I feel my body was never generating enough test, sliding into depression being a potential indicator. Unfortunately my hair fuck off on account of Test's entry, so back on the boards, Propecia;
Bang it in, now on different boards, hair loss boards WTF, Norwood Scale, Minoxidil, Dr. Lee Solutions, at the end it ripped my hairlines to bits.
Now, 2 years from NY, things are much better. I dropped the Propecia, basically reclaimed my dick back, SSRI dropped, I woke up, and in its place is working towards something.
How I end up , or what I end up looking, it doesn't mind as long as I have something to work to...
Not to lie, I am on Wellbutrin, 1 x 150 a day and it's great. I do get irritable but the amount of energy is life changing. This is not energy induced by Wellbutrin, but your own, which it found under the layers of numbness the SSRIs created.
No sure if there many in the same boat, but I would recommend you drop Celexa/Lexapro, give Wellbutrin a shot. Forget propecia, either shave it off, or if recoverable save up some cash for an HT.
My story!
Big hello to every one. This is my first post on EF, funny enough this is the first time I am on EF Forum and not desperately trying to find the quick fix for some back acne, hair loss or a puff tit.
My story if of any interest, however it involves SSRIs, AAS, Propecia;
At the time I was 24, all was good. Decent job, friends nothing too special but enough to have a good night while on the drink, and gf at the time was alright. Fast forward two weeks, I was in my bedroom, curtains shut, having called off sick from work and the episode didn't finish until 3 weeks later.
I did leave my house, but that stabbing pain, feeling of worthlessness kept going on. Everything was extremely hard - working, talking, basically caring. So as this escalated my mind started making random thoughts of a morbid nature, so much so, scared the shit out of me. To the doctor I went, ended up on Celexa.
It helped a lot, however the effect was through numbing you. Things didn't matter, or didn't bother me not on account that my self-esteem was high, my confidence strong, simply just didn't care.
In an effort to take control of this I joined my first Gym. Didn't have a clue of what I was doing, but merely hoping to get a dopamine release from the exercise. I never thought Wow!, this is it, it simply grew on me. It became something I needed to do!
Fast-forward 5 years, I ended up in New York for two years. I joined what was probably the best gym I had ever seen. It was in a dark basement, mostly cops came there as it was close to a PD and it was great. Huge, free weights, squat racks, yet no Smith Machine?!
Go well into that , now I am into the mentality,so I start playing around with the idea AAS, however I am worried on account of everything. Hair/Heart/Acne/Injecting/Gear Safety... Nonetheless , found some pharma grade Test and boom, I was in love.
I can't say I was in love with the results, as it was early day's but I feel my body was never generating enough test, sliding into depression being a potential indicator. Unfortunately my hair fuck off on account of Test's entry, so back on the boards, Propecia;
Bang it in, now on different boards, hair loss boards WTF, Norwood Scale, Minoxidil, Dr. Lee Solutions, at the end it ripped my hairlines to bits.
Now, 2 years from NY, things are much better. I dropped the Propecia, basically reclaimed my dick back, SSRI dropped, I woke up, and in its place is working towards something.
How I end up , or what I end up looking, it doesn't mind as long as I have something to work to...
Not to lie, I am on Wellbutrin, 1 x 150 a day and it's great. I do get irritable but the amount of energy is life changing. This is not energy induced by Wellbutrin, but your own, which it found under the layers of numbness the SSRIs created.
No sure if there many in the same boat, but I would recommend you drop Celexa/Lexapro, give Wellbutrin a shot. Forget propecia, either shave it off, or if recoverable save up some cash for an HT.
My story!
