Youtubes a plenty, me being a devout AA member, Cindy being the guy on Breaking Bad, Mitch being ugly and unwilling to post pics (no mugshot) are on their way.
Java, welcome back for the moment. Glad you're alive and, as always, please seek treatment. My ambien is kicking in, so I'm out before I wake up to a few "wtf was I thinking?" posts come out.
Be well, be nice, let resentments go, and move forward. You're welcome to PM me.