Anyone ever been treated for Depression?

[H_T_]

What are the symptoms? i know that sounds like a stupid question, but i think it's more than feeling sad all the time. i mean, i don't know if i am or not, but people keep telling me i am. i don't think about offing myself or anything, i just never, ever get excited about anything, nothing. i am an emotional flatline. the only feeling i really get is anger. i get pissed off at the slightest thing. it's kind of funny how i got to thinking about this. i've been working in bars on and off for the last 16 years and the other day i was talking to this old man. he said something that made me laugh, i mean laugh out loud. not a fake laugh to make someone feel good like i usually do. this was the first time ever that i laughed over something when talking to someone who wasn't my friend or relative. i just think that's not right..........

 

[Cutiebaby]

there are different symptoms and people all react differently...are you tired all the time? can you get out of bed? are you upset a lot? do you feel run down a lot? there are a lot of things...have you ever tried or thought of commiting suicide? these are some questions that will help

 

[H_T_]

there are different symptoms and people all react differently...are you tired all the time? can you get out of bed? are you upset a lot? do you feel run down a lot? there are a lot of things...have you ever tried or thought of commiting suicide? these are some questions that will help

when i get the chance, i sleep a lot. yeah, i feel like i'm always tired. i never move quickly, i don't have any pep i guess you'd say. upset? kinda, like i said, i get so pissed off, so quickly, over the stupidest things. yeah, i feel run down, i have to drink a few red bulls and take whatever energy/fat burning pill there is at the gas station to make it into the gym. suicide, that's a bit touchy. i don't "fantasize" about it, but i do make a lot of references or "jokes" about it. like, "nothing a bullet can't cure" or "i'd like to do a header off of the nearest sky-scraper". those are some of the replies i have to questions asked of me.

 

[MikeMartial]

What are the symptoms?

Mood swings
Irritability
Insomnia
Somnolence
Fatigue+++
Frequent illness
Lack of enthusiasm


....many times, "sadness" is not even a part of the signs/symptoms of depression, nor is suicidal ideation

About a year ago, I saw my physician for insomnia; after some deep digging, and long story short, depression was diagnosed. Needless to say I was surprised as hell, but in hindsight, it makes perfect sense.

I'm damn glad I saw him, because a LOT has changed in the last year for me.

Make an apt. with your doc, even if it turns out to be nothing. Can't put a price on peace of mind

 

[H_T_]

Mood swings
Irritability
Insomnia
Somnolence
Fatigue+++
Frequent illness
Lack of enthusiasm


....many times, "sadness" is not even a part of the signs/symptoms of depression, nor is suicidal ideation

About a year ago, I saw my physician for insomnia; after some deep digging, and long story short, depression was diagnosed. Needless to say I was surprised as hell, but in hindsight, it makes perfect sense.

I'm damn glad I saw him, because a LOT has changed in the last year for me.

Make an apt. with your doc, even if it turns out to be nothing. Can't put a price on peace of mind

i've been having these same series of feelings for 20+ years. "enthusiasm". wow, i can tell you that i haven't, maybe never, felt that emotion.

if you don't mind me asking, how did they treat it?

 

[MikeMartial]

i've been having these same series of feelings for 20+ years. "enthusiasm". wow, i can tell you that i haven't, maybe never, felt that emotion.

if you don't mind me asking, how did they treat it?

Doc treated with Effexor, 150mg/day. It's a SNRI (Serotonin/Norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor). A bit different than the regular SSRI's out there.

My case may be a bit different than yours; onset was very acute (less than a year) and results from treatment were very very rapid. I'm not pushing treatment by anti-depressants by any means, but they were very effective for me.

Side effects? Virtually none. I was worried about sexual side effects, but it seems the positive mindset overcame any negative effects of the drug

 

[H_T_]

thanks for the info, bro. i have an appointment tomorrow afternoon.

 

[Gymgurl]

How did your appt go?

 

[H_T_]

How did your appt go?

lol, i felt like 1000lbs. was lifted off of me. still do. i was walking around with a light-headedness feeling since then. it's weird when a stranger lets you know that it isn't your fault for feeling like shit for most of your life. now i know what and why has made me feel this way. i've been fixing these things since. it's gonna be a long time before i can put it all behind me but atleast i'm headed down the right road now.

 

[RottenWillow]

lol, i felt like 1000lbs. was lifted off of me. still do. i was walking around with a light-headedness feeling since then. it's weird when a stranger lets you know that it isn't your fault for feeling like shit for most of your life. now i know what and why has made me feel this way. i've been fixing these things since. it's gonna be a long time before i can put it all behind me but atleast i'm headed down the right road now.

HT, was this a therapy session, or did you just receive a perscription? The best treatment is a combination of both.

 

[H_T_]

HT, was this a therapy session, or did you just receive a perscription? The best treatment is a combination of both.

no pills, RW, apparently i have reactive depression. which can be treated without meds.

 

[RottenWillow]

no pills, RW, apparently i have reactive depression. which can be treated without meds.

well homie that's awesome you're getting help and feel better.
I remembered the story you told that night on biteme's thread, and have thought of it everytime I've seen any of your posts.

 

[H_T_]

well homie that's awesome you're getting help and feel better.
I remembered the story you told that night on biteme's thread, and have thought of it everytime I've seen any of your posts.

aww, well thanks! it helps a lot when you know why you do what you do. i think the biggest bit of advice i can give to someone who feels like me is that, "what you feel is entirely dependent on what you think." if you have distorted thoughts, your feelings won't have validity.

 

[RottenWillow]

aww, well thanks! it helps a lot when you know why you do what you do. i think the biggest bit of advice i can give to someone who feels like me is that, "what you feel is entirely dependent on what you think." if you have distorted thoughts, your feelings won't have validity.

just hang in there and keep going, ok?

 

[H_T_]

just hang in there and keep going, ok?

okie doke, you got it. thanks for the encouragement.

 

[H_T_]

wrong forum, i told Smurfy otherwise.

 

[Smurfy]

cognitive therapy. is that what your doing? focusing on positive thoughts?

I have a degree in Psychology, so Im somewhat familiar.

 

[H_T_]

cognitive therapy. is that what your doing? focusing on positive thoughts?

I have a degree in Psychology, so Im somewhat familiar.

yes, very much so. i've had a long run of bad experiences, so it's caused me to become shut-off from participating in most things that involve any sort of risk. whether it be physical, emotional, financial.

 

[Smurfy]

yes, very much so. i've had a long run of bad experiences, so it's caused me to become shut-off from participating in most things that involve any sort of risk. whether it be physical, emotional, financial.

you avoiding risk is a defense/coping mechanism. we all have them. mine is repressing how I am truly feeling at any given time.

 

[H_T_]

you avoiding risk is a defense/coping mechanism. we all have them. mine is repressing how I am truly feeling at any given time.

i show only one emotion if pressed and thats anger. i'm an emotional flatline for the most part. MikeMartial used the word "enthused". that's something i never feel. i form a routine, whether it be good or bad for me and stick to it. so i can feel safe.

 

[H_T_]

you know what's really hard? having days off from work. i can't stay busy enough when i don't work. i find myself doing things that aren't productive or positive. too much on my mind...........

 

[H_T_]

i swear, this is like training. i am trying so hard to unfuck my brain. it is so fucking hard. i wanted a drink so bad today. i wanted to drown in booze. it's so pathetic, that i work in a bar but wanted to stay home and drink alone. i haven't slept well in days, and i can't figure out why. i know i need to sleep now, but my mind won't cooperate. trying to change the way you think is a hard fight. i'm around a bunch of gossipy bitches at night, total negativity. and they want to sit and talk to me about other people. haven't they a clue that i know as soon as i turn my back, i know they talk about me? what possesses people to act like this? i asked this jerk-of-a-female why would you say that about someone? and she says" i'm not trying to be mean". well fuck all if that isn't what that is! please someone tell me there is a place where people don't stick it to you when you walk away? is there? the town i work in, it's asleep. i swear no one looks anywhere but at their feet. i say something to them and it's like i woke them up. "what?" huh? is all i hear from people. alcoholics are the worse, what a fucking roller-coaster that is. miserable on their way in, happy after 2 or 3 drinks, back to misery after last call. sorry, now back to me. now i've felt like my eyes are opened. like that guy in office space. i usually dated a girl if i found her attractive enough and we responded well to each other. i'd let the other pieces just fall in place and go from there. but now i think i've learned to peer into someone. to really look. look at who they are. how did i used to date someone after i heard her complain about guys being cheap? or when a chick has like 5 guyfriends constantly around? i've learned i'm not the only cuckoo in the nest. most people have issues, but most lack the introspective point of view. most let their friends tell them who and what they are. maybe i'm being harsh, but i don't want to be a part of this anymore. i go out to have fun, not fight. not to sit and complain about a "friend". but ti's everywhere, fucking everywhere! i choked this dude the other night, and felt terrible after i did it. part of me wanted to kick his brains all over the parking lot, and the other part wanted to say i'm sorry. i felt bad for humiliating him in front of these assholes that he got into it with. i wasn't trying to make these fucks happy. and then the bitches i work with are like, "oh, man! i wish i didn't miss that" that woulda been awesome"! people fucking suck. "have a good time always, @someone elses expense", and that is the new motto of the new millenium..............

 

[tiadesai]

If you are depressed at the moment some of the following symptoms may sound familiar:

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You feel miserable and sad.
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You feel exhausted a lot of the time with no energy .
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You feel as if even the smallest tasks are sometimes impossible.
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You seldom enjoy the things that you used to enjoy-you may be off sex or food or may 'comfort eat' to excess.
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You feel very anxious sometimes.
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You don't want to see people or are scared to be left alone. Social activity may feel hard or impossible.
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You find it difficult to think clearly.
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You feel like a failure and/or feel guilty a lot of the time.
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You feel a burden to others.
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You sometimes feel that life isn't worth living.
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You can see no future. There is a loss of hope. You feel all you've ever done is make mistakes and that's all that you ever will do.
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You feel irritable or angry more than usual.
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You feel you have no confidence.
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You spend a lot of time thinking about what has gone wrong, what will go wrong or what is wrong about yourself as a person. You may also feel guilty sometimes about being critical of others (or even thinking critically about them).
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You feel that life is unfair.
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You have difficulty sleeping or wake up very early in the morning and can't sleep again. You seem to dream all night long and sometimes have disturbing dreams.
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You feel that life has/is 'passing you by.'
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You may have physical aches and pains which appear to have no physical cause, such as back pain.

 

[MikeMartial]

i swear, this is like training. i am trying so hard to unfuck my brain. it is so fucking hard.

Hang in there, bro. Don't bail on your counselor/psychologist, don't bail on your doc, and especially

DON'T BAIL ON YOURSELF

I don't remember the exact stats, but my doc quoted some stating that "talk therapy" works in X percent of the cases, meds work in X% of the cases, but the two together work better than X + X (greater than the sum of the parts, if you catch my drift).

 

[H_T_]

Hang in there, bro. Don't bail on your counselor/psychologist, don't bail on your doc, and especially

DON'T BAIL ON YOURSELF

I don't remember the exact stats, but my doc quoted some stating that "talk therapy" works in X percent of the cases, meds work in X% of the cases, but the two together work better than X + X (greater than the sum of the parts, if you catch my drift).

thanks for the encouragement, bro. i'm workin' my ass off thrying to fix my self. i find things all day long being applied to my treatment. i see people far worse off than i am, but they don't think anytihng is wrong. i can't believe there are people that won't try to fix what is broken.