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First time Logger here: UnclePoon
My stats: 32 Yr Male, Health Practitioner as work. Greek and Aboriginal.
Current weight 116kg. Goal weight 90kg.
Height 5"6
Average daily steps 5k. Will increase this to 8-10k as my goal.
Current PR's: Bench160kg, Deadlift 220kg, Squat 180kg - I don't lift with belts. Only on heavy bench do I use an elbow sleeve that does fuck all cause it's too big haha.
I'll do one long story and the rest of my logs will be simple and short so only one painful read my guys.
History:
Staples about me:
* Weights come first for my lifestyle to be stabilized: I don't eat well if i'm not training, I sleep better when I train. etc
* I have never wanted to be skinny, I love and always loved being a big boy, all my women love it, big strong man with love handles makes me feel sexy:
* I have never cared for being lean until just now in my life.
* never done a lifting program or diet.
* i'm stubborn as fuck - I can't even tell myself what to do
* I'm genuine - You won't ever see the real me if you meet me with your walls, but I'll treat you as if you're family if you talk to me as the real you.
(this feels like a dating profile now)
90% of my adult life I experience very little to low anxiety - this leaves me with a level headed and calm demeanor.
21 years old - I gave up drugs, smoking and drinking I was using Ice at this stage and started to lose myself after wanting to take my life.
Never a drug addict just a lost kid who got more lost so to speak.
I did everything wrong until I learnt to do everything.
Getting off the drugs and depression - I hit my highest body weight of 158kg - Stupid thing is I'm reverse body dysmorphia - I thought I was always beautiful - I'm shallow hal (the movie if you seen it) and women always loved me.
I was born confident it's a curse in it's own for those who are like this haha - my fat ass could see one beautiful thing in the mirror and ignore every ugly thing about my body - Until I seen a photo one day of me holding my nephew - the glass house shattered - it's like the control of someone else taking photo and showing you - something about the psychology maybe of not being in control of the image - I seen the ugliness I was feeling - our bodies do represent our psychological state - I was extremely unhealthy and was lying to myself.
Got myself into the gym - within 12 months I realized i was strong.
I lost 40kg's naturally no assistance from anything but my will - was running on the beach and weight raining 5-6 days a week. - long story short - I'm no stranger to discipline - I just need the motivation.
Was squatting 160kg - rolled my lower back on a foam roller after *POP* their goes my SI joint (right lower hip) I turned into an 80 year old man over night, took me out of the gym and mental health declined.
4 years later I'm back to 150kg+ Except I have severe pain in my Left shoulder due to rotational issues, form my abdominal area (to this day I feel like a twisted snake)
Literally my shoulder felt like glass rubbing on glass and I looked at myself and thought I'm gonna blow my brains out if I do one more year like this.
Got the Gastric sleeve - this fucking killed my mental health that I was reduced to this - I use to slog everyone off "fucken fat cunts are lazy" because I feel 90% of people who go the surgery - NEVER tried. I was constantly trialing and failing until I was reduced to a Hail Mary option. My immediate plan was to get my stomach back to normal size - I just wanted to lose a tone of weight quickly so I could get myself excersing pain free.
Best thing I ever did. But I did feel ashamed for a few years after and kept it secret.
My strength hit walls as a natty I couldn't break through easily - Benching 120kg, Squatting 170 again and deadlifting 170 again after rehab work for 2 years post surgery.
28yr - start PED, and self TRT or formally - Blast and cruise.
32 yr - Couldn't get under 118kg body weight no matter what I did, Swapped food and diets out etc.
- Tried Reta for 12 weeks 2mg titrated to 4mg and lost 10kg I got to 112kg - I looked phenomenal, I can see abs and my gut lifted so much: I discovered the feeling of being Lean and it felt good (don't get me wrong I don't wanna be a bone dick lean either)
Mr. Zenith and I seemed to be on the same terms as Sponsor vs Sponsor and Here I am.
Reta is on the way as we speak - I'm doings Self TRT of 180mg per week.
I'll be updating after a fortnight of my first usage and will aim to do weekly to fortnightly updates.
This Community:
Feel free to offer me suggestions around food, diets etc - this is a weak point of mine.
I CAN OFFER: Education around PED usage - I'm a health practitioner and have fundamental knowledge around compound usage in relation to our physiology, I study these compounds in my personal life so I would like to think I know a thing or two - I'm always balancing risk vs reward with anabolic steroid usage so if you have health questions ask away my friends.
I'll attach some starting pics for you, 2 angels for flexing just to compare alter on. the rest are just real - no sucking in etc.
My stats: 32 Yr Male, Health Practitioner as work. Greek and Aboriginal.
Current weight 116kg. Goal weight 90kg.
Height 5"6
Average daily steps 5k. Will increase this to 8-10k as my goal.
Current PR's: Bench160kg, Deadlift 220kg, Squat 180kg - I don't lift with belts. Only on heavy bench do I use an elbow sleeve that does fuck all cause it's too big haha.
I'll do one long story and the rest of my logs will be simple and short so only one painful read my guys.
History:
Staples about me:
* Weights come first for my lifestyle to be stabilized: I don't eat well if i'm not training, I sleep better when I train. etc
* I have never wanted to be skinny, I love and always loved being a big boy, all my women love it, big strong man with love handles makes me feel sexy:
* I have never cared for being lean until just now in my life.
* never done a lifting program or diet.
* i'm stubborn as fuck - I can't even tell myself what to do
* I'm genuine - You won't ever see the real me if you meet me with your walls, but I'll treat you as if you're family if you talk to me as the real you.
(this feels like a dating profile now)
90% of my adult life I experience very little to low anxiety - this leaves me with a level headed and calm demeanor.
21 years old - I gave up drugs, smoking and drinking I was using Ice at this stage and started to lose myself after wanting to take my life.
Never a drug addict just a lost kid who got more lost so to speak.
I did everything wrong until I learnt to do everything.
Getting off the drugs and depression - I hit my highest body weight of 158kg - Stupid thing is I'm reverse body dysmorphia - I thought I was always beautiful - I'm shallow hal (the movie if you seen it) and women always loved me.
I was born confident it's a curse in it's own for those who are like this haha - my fat ass could see one beautiful thing in the mirror and ignore every ugly thing about my body - Until I seen a photo one day of me holding my nephew - the glass house shattered - it's like the control of someone else taking photo and showing you - something about the psychology maybe of not being in control of the image - I seen the ugliness I was feeling - our bodies do represent our psychological state - I was extremely unhealthy and was lying to myself.
Got myself into the gym - within 12 months I realized i was strong.
I lost 40kg's naturally no assistance from anything but my will - was running on the beach and weight raining 5-6 days a week. - long story short - I'm no stranger to discipline - I just need the motivation.
Was squatting 160kg - rolled my lower back on a foam roller after *POP* their goes my SI joint (right lower hip) I turned into an 80 year old man over night, took me out of the gym and mental health declined.
4 years later I'm back to 150kg+ Except I have severe pain in my Left shoulder due to rotational issues, form my abdominal area (to this day I feel like a twisted snake)
Literally my shoulder felt like glass rubbing on glass and I looked at myself and thought I'm gonna blow my brains out if I do one more year like this.
Got the Gastric sleeve - this fucking killed my mental health that I was reduced to this - I use to slog everyone off "fucken fat cunts are lazy" because I feel 90% of people who go the surgery - NEVER tried. I was constantly trialing and failing until I was reduced to a Hail Mary option. My immediate plan was to get my stomach back to normal size - I just wanted to lose a tone of weight quickly so I could get myself excersing pain free.
Best thing I ever did. But I did feel ashamed for a few years after and kept it secret.
My strength hit walls as a natty I couldn't break through easily - Benching 120kg, Squatting 170 again and deadlifting 170 again after rehab work for 2 years post surgery.
28yr - start PED, and self TRT or formally - Blast and cruise.
32 yr - Couldn't get under 118kg body weight no matter what I did, Swapped food and diets out etc.
- Tried Reta for 12 weeks 2mg titrated to 4mg and lost 10kg I got to 112kg - I looked phenomenal, I can see abs and my gut lifted so much: I discovered the feeling of being Lean and it felt good (don't get me wrong I don't wanna be a bone dick lean either)
Mr. Zenith and I seemed to be on the same terms as Sponsor vs Sponsor and Here I am.
Reta is on the way as we speak - I'm doings Self TRT of 180mg per week.
I'll be updating after a fortnight of my first usage and will aim to do weekly to fortnightly updates.
This Community:
Feel free to offer me suggestions around food, diets etc - this is a weak point of mine.
I CAN OFFER: Education around PED usage - I'm a health practitioner and have fundamental knowledge around compound usage in relation to our physiology, I study these compounds in my personal life so I would like to think I know a thing or two - I'm always balancing risk vs reward with anabolic steroid usage so if you have health questions ask away my friends.
I'll attach some starting pics for you, 2 angels for flexing just to compare alter on. the rest are just real - no sucking in etc.
