Our coven did all the sephiroth last year (one per month) now we're working the paths from Malkuth up. Our HP has us working them in groupings, according triangle groupings and gematria.
I have two chakra clearing exercises if you're interested, one is more powerful (and time consuming) than the other. Do you still have my private email? If so, send me an email to it (I'm blanking on yours), I'll send you attachments. If not, send me yours via private mail here.
In the past two months I've spent WAAAAAAYYYY too much money on books/rocks/meditative CDs and furniture ... I've been bad ... well, hubby's final child support payment will be the last monday of this month, I went a little overboard
I know what you mean about giving up and letting go. Sometimes the biggest lesson we need to learn on this plane is trusting the process. I'm having residual health problems from the meningitis I had the begining of last month. My HP is telling me there's something energetic going on and considering the quality of the pain changed after a very potent ritual earlier this month I'm inclined to believe her. That doesn't make it easier to deal with though
Frustrating doesn't even come close to describing the feeling.