Yeah digi it's that kind of habitual effort of busting your ass, and making an effort to produce. See, You have a philosophical base -your family-, However, U feel more alive than you have in years, even though you are flirting with burn out, one thing I have learned, is that it is in the second step, the doing, the making an effort... to produce, change, ore whatever endeavor you are seeking. It is the 2nd step of effort, athat created the third vehicle of awareness, connection, intimacy. It creates a stronger intention to live life in the correct ratios.
I just took 2 ambien, and my eyes are slacking on me, but i'll explain it to you in the morning.
I think too much over spring break, and end up tired when I hit my research project.