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 do you ever feel like just breaking down?
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Elite Bodybuilder 
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you all can flame me all you want, but i'm just being human. i have so much shit in my head right now it's not funny! i'll find out next week if i'm a father. my supposed daughters b-day is this sunday, and i feel like a fuck because i'm not going to spend it with her. depending when i get my results from the paternity test i more than likely will not spend x-mas with her either. i'm nervous as hell about getting these results back. positive or negative i have so many mixed feelings. i'm very rarely a negative person, but i think the holidays make me this way. it saddens me i can't have x-mas w/ my father(deceased), i think of all the people who have nothing, and children who will receive nothing. i guess i should'nt be so selfish. sometimes i thimk we need to re-elvaluate ourselves, and find our feelings we rarely express. i know i don't express my feelings like i should. maybe it's time to change! sorry for negativety, this is a rare moment from me. ------------------     | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder 
Posts: 80 |
I'm here for you baby and you know it. If you need a shoulder to cry on, a hug, massage, or a ????? let me know. Just trying to make you smile  | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 732 |
a massage would be good right now,and a job!------------------ | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 80 |
What's a smiley job? lol!! If you keep talkin trash about my team there will be no more. | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 732 |
GO UC,GO UC! ------------------ | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 80 |
Haaaaa, you make me laugh. I thought you might change your mind. We'll see, maybe tomorrow. | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 119 |
i just took 6 adderal to study for exams...i feel like a smart broken down 80 year old man who lives in the gutter..ugh..only 4 days of this shit thank god.. ------------------ | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder 
Posts: 420 |
bro, adderal burnt me out real bad. Be careful with that shit! | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 539 |
FREAK, I HAVE SLOWLY BEEN BREAKING DOWN MENTALLY FOR 9 MONTHS... ACTUALLY 6... IT GETS WORSE, SO DONT START THINKING IT "CANT" GET ANY WORSE... NOT SURE WHEN I BOTTOMED OUT OR IF I HAVE YET, WE WILL SEE. I WOULD NEVER DO ANYTHING INTENTIONALLY TO HARM MYSELF, BUT I DID WISH FOR SOMETHING ELSE TO HARM ME (AS LONG AS IT WAS QUICK). NOT SURE WHAT TO TELL YOU. I KNOW WHEN I GET BACK TO MICHIGAN IF I AM STILL FEELING AS LOW AS I HAVE I AM GOING TO SEE A DOCTOR ABOUT IT, CUZ IT JUST BUILDS UP, LAYER AFTER LAYER... SORRY DUDE, NOT MUCH ANYONE CAN SAY TO YOU TO HELP... JUST KEEP TRAINING HARD, IT HELPS A LITTLE. | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 658 |
FREAK AND MAD. I HAVE BEEN THERE TOO, AND I HATE TO SEE 2 BROTHERS DOWN ON THEMSELVES. GUYS JUST WHEN YOU ARE THINKING HOW SHITTY LIFE IS REMEMBER, IT CAN ALWAYS BE WORSE. | ||
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Freak 
Posts: 1916 |
FD, Things do get better. i know cause I was/ well am still where you are right now. Things aren't as bad for me now as i thought they were the other day when I posted about being so depressed. I just sat down and read over what everyone had told me, and thought about what I could do to make my life "right now" a little more bright! That is all you have to do, go somewhere by yourself that you can just sit and think, somewhere you usually wouldnt go either. this way your mind is clear. P. S, i decided to donate a bunch of toys to a family that cant buy them for their own children this Christmas. Let me tell you the high I got just knowing how happy those small kids will be on Xmas day! It does get better! | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 442 |
I'm here for ya. The first few Christmas's without my dad sucked, but now we've gotten into a different groove. My mom moving to a different house helped a lot. Things now are more casual, low key. It's a shitty time of year for stress. I feel for ya. | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 732 |
thank you for all your kind words. it is nice to know people you do not even really know care. it's nice that we can be here for each other and have uplifting words for each other. i kind of consider you people my second family. if any of you need anything all you need to do is let me know! unless it's money! thanks again!madbomber, when you go back to michigan let me know! you will be going through indiana won't you? ------------------ "it feels so good to be so bad" "only take advice from people you want to be like" freak daddy [This message has been edited by freak daddy (edited December 16, 2000).] | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 196 |
Freak Daddy, I know what ya mean. I'm goin through some really tough shit myself with my ex g/f. You never really know how much someone can actually fuck with your head. Actually, we both fucked up each others heads. But, were both trying to piece together everything that went wrong. Madbomber's right though...keep training, it deffinately helps. Its kept me from goin insane...so far anyways. I hope, whatever the results that are, that things work out for ya. And its my opinion that things always happen for a reason. peace | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 978 |
Freak I've been through the paternity test thing to. There's nothing like it in the world. Stay tough, it WILL get better. It's OK to feel like shit from time to time, there's no shame. Just remember though, don't let circumstances become an excuse to be less than you are. Be true to yourself and your core values -- even in the face of adversity -- and you can never go wrong. Write if you want. Hang in there. BigTruck | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 647 |
Dlady: That was such a nice thing to do!!!! I have been in those shoes too!! Time does make it better! And just like | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 94 |
Breaking down helps wash out negative emotions. |
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