posted May 28, 2000 10:52 PM            

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First off, I wanna vent to those morons who take great pleasure in flaming me, and sending nasty emails. I think you are some cold hearted SOB's, and as you can see I have a lot more support on this board and all the other boards I post on, then you will ever have in a lifetime. The next time you flame me, I hope these guys and girls ream you out. Im sick and tired of your hurtful remarks and I am not going to leave. Get over it. I know it must really bother you to see me an ex porn star get so much attention, if you werent such a prick you might too, but that is doubtful, seeing how hateful you are. I know you obviously have a serious problem in realizing that it could be possible for a girl like me to change, and become a Christian who loves God and actually settle down in a loving, and successful , monogamous marriage. That must really bother you, it must also bother you that I have found God and try to walk in peace and love. You may as well give it up, you have lost and that makes you the loser. You did this to yourself now get off my ass, and infact leave the board entirely , you are scum.

OK, OK I feel better now...I will stay, I was not going to but its kinda hard to leave when I have you guys behind me so much. I have received tons of emails from you. I have never seen so much love and support in a day than I have today. I try very hard to remain positive and love posting here and conversing back and forth with you all. I feel like I have really made a lot of friendships on this board and all the others too. Sometimes its hard though when you have some ruthless pricks who would rather see you in tears, sickness and misery. I have never understood the nature of it. All I can say is that there are some sick people out there. I dealt with this kind in LA. Hey, if I could turn the clock back and never have done the movies and all that other crap, I could and would in a heartbeat. I made mistakes ,no doubt about it. I was the first to admit it so I dont need these dicky remarks from you, whoever you are.. When a person changes their life from bad to good you dont keep bringing up the past and condemning them, and hurting them. The normal thing to do, if you have that big of a problem with it, is to be Christian like and forgive them, maybe even offer them help and support , like so many others on this board have.. Thats what God would do...God is the only judge and he is FORGIVING. So who are you to be so judgemental and cruel? Here let me answer that... YOURE A NOBODY! You cant turn the clock back, all you can do is go forward and make the best of your situation whatever it is . I have fully repented of my sins, been forgave from my past mistakes. If some sick FUC out there cant see that, then he/she obviousl has a deep spiritually rooted problem. Love can change a persons whole outlook on life. This person/s who has been harrassing me is missing love and a spiritual relationship with God, and needs help. I am forgiving, but I also want to be left alone. IF YOU DONT HAVE SOMETHING NICE TO SAY THEN DONT SAY ANYTHING, especially hurtful remarks. Why would you want to intentionally hurt someone, who is trying to better themselves? Are you that jealous and insecure with your own life. Its pretty evil when one has to resort to pain to get pleasure. Take care everyone, I think this person has made a royal ass out of themselves and has no support and very, very few friends on this board. That is why they are hiding and not responding to anyones emails, including mine.
MILLGIRL

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