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 I've lost it......I'm over the edge....
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Cool Novice 
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I usually don't post here.....I'm one of those guys who just creeps in and listens. I've fuckin had it with this girl, I tried to do everything right. Damn I wrote her letters, gave her flowers, opened my heart to her, everything. Yet this time, its gone to far. Everything has bein building up, just waiting to make me explode..grades, I'm all ready depressed as a mother fucker for other reasons. I'm to that point where I just don't give a fuck about anything. But in a way, I've never been so damn focused. This pisses me off, but I'm glad its over with. Damnit.....that did it. Just had to vent fellas.....thanks     | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder 
Posts: 428 |
hope you feel better. tell us what happened if you want. | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 21 |
I hate hearing people say, "I've lost it....I'm over the edge..." it scares me...This too shall pass... ------------------ | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 26 |
f*ck...had it all written out and I clicked some damn button that erased it all....happens to me everytime. Let me sum it up. It was wrong from the start because she already ahd a bf when her and me started having feelings for eachother. Shit doesn't work when there are 2 guys. And it was my fault because I should have seen it coming. Everything was so perfect, so I just pushed aside in my head what might happen in the future because of this. I've never opened up to anyone like this before. I felt so free, like nothing else in the world mattered while I was around her. I told her not to break up with him if she had any regrets. She broke up with him, everything was going good. Then I start hearing stories about how I wasn't just the only one. And we start arguing about all kinds of unless crap, she still had feelings for him, and it crushed me. It was the deepest blow I ever felt. I knew all along that it wouldn't work...theres always pain at the end in shit like this. This just added to everything else going on. Grades were falling, I had no-self condfidence, I felt like I was heading nowhere fast. Thoughts of dead were running through my mind for monthes before this. I closed myself of to everything good in my life pretty much and I realized that I was all alone. I have so much in me, but I just can't seem to get back on my feet. This just made me go over the edge...I just don't care anymore. I'm on my own again as usual. I can't believe I could open up so much to someone. I would have gave my life for her..... | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 26 |
kart chic....I know it will pass....yet it hurt me deep. I never thought I could feel so much for someone else, and when I realize I could, I got crushed. I know I need to get back on track, the decisions that I've made have put me in this positon. Just everytime this happens, it puts more doubt in my mind. I feel so alone sometimes, like its mea against the world. The only thing that is holding me down is myself. I need to open my eyes..... | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 21 |
Try not to let these experiences effect new ones in the future. In other words, when you are into another relationship, don't think of all the bad ones you have had. Giving yourself to someone is brave. It is one of the sexiest things in a man. Concentrate on YOU and only YOU at this point. I too have had many hard times, I learn from them all. I am a better person for doing so. Good luck and I feel for you. ------------------ | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 428 |
As a fellow recently stomped-on man, you have my deepest sympathies. | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder 
Posts: 972 |
Focus your energy now on going to the gym..thats what I did after getting my heart handed to me on tray 2 years ago.. now Im up 25lbs and loaded with self confidence...... It still sucks when I think about it..but I feel a lot better..and I really feel it was going to the gym that made the difference ------------------ |
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