But now the night draws near
And it is time for me to go.

Maybe what we had was never meant to be
Maybe it was, but we just didn't have the courage to make it.

I guess we'll never know.

I don't know if friendship is possible
But I hope we can be friendly.

This is not what I wanted,
But I'm tired and beaten.
I've hit the wall,
My armor is tattered and dented,
Rendered ineffective.

I finally
Believe the daggers you throw at me are real.

They say guys don't listen
And maybe I haven't for a long time
Because I didn't want to believe
That my beliefs were so wrong.

But this time,
This last time,
When you said all of those things,
I listened, believed,
And succumbed.

At least you're honest.
Or are you?

Either way, it's over now.

I release you from my bond
And I forgive you for what you've done
And I forgive myself for judging you.

There's nothing to do now but move on.

It's not what I wanted or pictured
But it's what life has given me.

I wish you the best.

And I love you.

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Peace

Even though I've been burned by love, I know full well that there is somebody out there for me. I will not allow myself to never be vunerable again, I will trust again. I will love again and be open to being hurt again. To do othewise would be like dying I think.

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I don't hope that I'll get through it -- I'm convinced that I will get through it!

No matter the outcome, I'll be OK. Of course, I wish it would turn out that suddenly things would turn around for us in this relationship and all would be restored. Unfortunately, I don't think that's going to happen. I'm OK with facing a new life. Freedom again.

I dunno Machine: I do not know of one single couple who has been married over 20 years who have said they are really happy. ESPECIALLY the women...I know so many widows whom have never remarried cause they said once was bad enough....I know lots of couples who are still together, and will probably stay together, but they arenet happy....not a single one. The older I get the more disillusioned I get....people seem to settle for so much less just so they won't be alone.

Show me ONE, just ONE couple who are as much in love 35 years later, who have no bitterness towards each other, have always beent there for each other and I will hope once again.

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Originally posted by kat:

I dunno Machine: I do not know of one single couple who has been married over 20 years who have said they are really happy. ESPECIALLY the women...I know so many widows whom have never remarried cause they said once was bad enough....I know lots of couples who are still together, and will probably stay together, but they arenet happy....not a single one. The older I get the more disillusioned I get....people seem to settle for so much less just so they won't be alone.

Show me ONE, just ONE couple who are as much in love 35 years later, who have no bitterness towards each other, have always beent there for each other and I will hope once again.

I am afraid that couple doesnt exist.

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It's true to think that a lot of people stay together because they're running away from something (i.e. lonliness, etc.), However, there are those that ARE truly in love with eachother. It reminds me of something I once read:

When two halves come together,
Yes it does make a whole.

But when two wholes come together,
ahh that's something truly beatiful.

I think you're right, there is NO couple on the face of the planet that doesn't have conflict or certain things they don't like about their partner, it's true that maybe they weren't always there... But what you describe is an impossible standard. Once you allow people to be human, and therefore, imperfect, that makes those things OK. Because you know that fundamentally they're there for eachother -- even through the tough times and they love eachother enough to bring out the best in one another and not predicate their love on the love they receive, in other words, they love unconditionally (within preset boundaries).

As for happy, married couples -- My parents have been married for over 30 years, to this day my dad would lay down his life for my mom and my mom thinks about no one but my dad. My grandparents have been married for over 50 years. They still hold hands and can sit in a room with eachother and talk for hours about anything. That's love.

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My grandparents have been married almost 51 years. My parents are seperated now after 23 years.

after my last committed relationship I didn't put much faith in the thought of getting married, and after dealing with my dads shit since that time he moved out I am convinced that I don't want to get married. On the bright side at least I didn't give my ex the engagement ring before the shit hit the fan

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Originally posted by kat:
well, I hope one day to see it in someone cause every time Ive thought a couple were "perfectly" in love Ive found stuff out later that burst my balloon.

a pessimist is a romantic with a broken heart.

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Kat, there is no such thing as "perfect" love, only human love. Once you realize that nobody is perfect, it will allow you to look at the really good parts of love, rather than what you don't like about it.