My bro's girlfriend has a little sister who thinks I'm cute. I do not feel the same way about her. She needs a date to some dance coming up and her sister asked me awhile back if I'd go; I said I didn't know and that was that. Then earlier this week she asked me again. I figured I'sd save myself a fuckin headache and say yes so I could go ahead w/ business [mom calls them errands]. I know if I would've said I don't know [also known as 'no (politely) please leave me alone'] then she'd talk my brother into asking me and if I played the 'I don't know' card again he'd probably get my mom to talk me into it cause he didn't want to get a headache. Then if I played the card once again w/ my mom she'd give me a guilt trip, which is worse than a headache to me, so I'd feel like shit. Then shit would hit the fan and when it stuck to the wall everyone would wind up being pissed at me. I don't need that so I said yes. God I feel like such a whore. I think they think I'm a prostitute and they're my pimp and madam.
To top it off its not like I could get some if I were attracted to her, cause word would get out. Then my bro would have my ass, his girl would have my ass, her mom would have my ass and my mom would have my ass. More shit I don't need.
What really pisses me off is how they figure I'm an excellent last minute date and don't have a life. Well I got a fucking game that afternoon and planned on goin over my cousin's in Jersey afterwards cause his girl has a friend who I was gonna hook up with, my cous tells me her friend is a real slut too [hot one]. Oh well I just feel like bitching, nothing I can do; unless I get hurt or something happens that doesn't allow me to go.
Just had to vent somewhere.

Barbarian, I think I'm gonna have to figure a way of of this. What you said makes alot of sense if I get treated like that it shows lack of respect for me and of myself for letting them treat me like that. I don't know what the fuck is goin on anymore. I shouldn't worry bout the family politics but can't help but think of it.

Anyways, I figure I'll just get a 24 hour flu and make him go. Make me look bad? Yeah, probably. Is it wrong? Technicly yes, but do they have it coming to them? Damn straight. I'm not a call boy for them to put at arms length and call me when they see fit. I bet damn well if she would've been asked by someone or would've asked someone I wouldn't have even heard she was goin to a dance or that one was taking place.

i'll write it out - i was stoned out of my brain the other night and left this girl high and dry in a club at just past 1. didn't take her calls 'till 3:30 when she rings, in hysterics, thought i'd been rolled or was passed out or something. simply told her i wasn't a whore, she was a rancid moll and hung up. tee hee