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 Losing my lust for life...
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Novice 
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Hey children. The world has been beating me down for a long time now, and I'm starting to think it would be easier being dead. Not that I think being dead is cool, or that it wouldn't hurt the people that love me, but the fires that burned so hot inside me are burning out. I'm looking for something to light my fires again. I've tried the usual (smoking pot, hot sex with hot girls, doing exciting stupid lifethreatening shit) but it hasn't been working. The pot makes me feel burned out, the girls have too much stupid shit to deal with, and after I do some extreme shit, a sense of futility sets it. I just got a $100,000 life insurance policy with double idemnity, and I've never feared death. Jogging in front of a semi has a certain appeal. I'm not quite ready to call it quits yet. The stupid shit it my life is still gonna be there. The iron, which has always been there for me, still calls. I have never done a cycle, although I've learned enough about gear to consider myself well educated. This is not a post about suicide, or depression, or any such shit. After careful consideration, I have decided that doing a wicked cycle is my best bet to relight my fires. What I want is considered advice on cycles from people who know what they're talking about. I'm 6'0 190 11% bf (skinny, yeah, but up 55lbs naturally from 6'0 135 age 18), lifting 10 years. I don't give a fuck about hairloss or shit like that. These are obviously the least of my troubles. Due to certain factors, it can't be too obvious I'm juicing. Yeah, I can say it's the creatine, or some musclemag bullshit, but I work with people who know better. Week__Test__Clomid___Primo___Eq___Fina 1_____500 2_____500 3_____500 4_____500 5_____500 6_____500 7_____500 8_____500 9____________50ed_____200____ 10___________50ed_____200____ 11___________50ed_____200____ 12___________50ed_____200____ 13___________50eod____________400___75eod 14___________50eod____________300___75eod 15___________50eod____________300___75eod 16___________50eod____________300___75eod 17___________50eod____________300___75eod 18___________50eod____________300___75eod 19___________50eod____________300 20___________50eod____________300 21___________50/3days_________300 22___________50/3days_________300 23___________50/3days_________200 24___________50/3days_________100 The test is aratest. I'm looking for advice with the eq, equipose (115) is almost twice as expensive as ganabol (60) for 50ml/50mg. Any real difference? The primo is just a nice little bridge. I've heard mixed reviews on how prone fina is to shutting down testicular function. Somebody please lay down the facts.     | ||
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Novice
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Lay off the weed dude, it's what's making you feel like shit. Sure, it's great when you're actually high, but the next day is slothville. Seriously, get jacked, lay of the rec's, you'll feel better. | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder 
Posts: 81 |
Don't call it quits (on life) bro. We're all iron brothers here and everyone is here to help each other become stronger and better. Stay strong and hit up your cycle, you'll be alright. | ||
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Cool Novice 
Posts: 41 |
Bro, Hang in there till your cycle. I bet you feel better. I always do. And if you need to rely on the iron to keep you going. Be happy it's more than the fat ass trailer trash at walmart have. | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 215 |
Get some D-bol and eat the shit out of it. That always meake me feel better. | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder 
Posts: 381 |
Damn bro. I'm not sure about the ganabol vs. eq, or fina and testes, but I'll bump ya. ------------------ | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 132 |
Because you are plagued with depression,and low T may make this worse,I don't advise a long cycle like this.Perhaps you have very low T now from not taking enough off time.I'm in my 40's,yet I don't relish the idea of going on life time replacement(though what does 200mg./wk. really cost?).Anyway,I worry about you bro.I figure with more off time your T level may just rise naturally.Do you ever get real down while you are on test?Big crash from a 5 month cycle may not be your best perscription. Finally,remember that moods are temporary.Don't start to believe that you will always feel a certain way.Find a girl with far away eyes. | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 271 |
When you do your cycle you'll feel a shitload better. You might not like coming off or the Clomid affects if your prone to depression. BTW Think your a little light on the Primo. | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 472 |
If you are feeling down there is nothing better than dbol and test. This combo will make you feel like a god and put mass and strength on you like nothing else. If it wasn't for liver, heart and hairloss concerns I would do this cycle over and over with an eq or primo bridge. Since it is your first cycle the test alone at 500mg a week will work well. I wouldn't recommend bridging after your first cycle but you can do what you want. It wouldn't be a bad idea to add in the primo or eq at the end of the test for a while to dump the water and keep the mass and strength. Just don't forget the clomid at the end. You sound like you may have low test as it is. You might want to go have your test levels checked by your doc and see if he won't prescribe some test and maybe prozac for you. Depression, low libido, and lethargy are signes of low testosterone levels. You might also want to try going to church. Your problems sound like they could be more spiritual than chemical. You would be surprised how much better you can feel after you turn your problems over to God and start living life for Him instead of for pot, sex, and adrenalin. Sorry if I sound condescending but I wanted to suggest every possible cure for your problems. Later, | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 45 |
You're depressed, unmotivated, you have no self-esteem, and you are contemplating suicide. And you think steroids are the answer to all of life's problems? News flash: your problems are bigger than steroids. If your self-worth is so tied to your body image that you think life isn't worth living, then you don't need a good cycle, you need a good therapist. [This message has been edited by lpw (edited November 03, 2000).] | ||
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Cool Novice
Posts: 33 |
okay enough with the sobb story. here is the answers to your questions cycle looks good. as far as gan or eq the answer is go with ultragan 100 at about 80-100 a bottle domestic less inj and better price. the fina at those doses for that amount of time will not affect your test levels perm. dont worry be happy MM | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 595 |
Same old, same old. You may be depressed but are probably bored. A life w/o goals is empty. George Foreman said: "If you don't have a purpose in life, you might as well be dead". The old "lust for life" comes back with new anticipations and unfamiliar territory. A long road trip can be great to revive the excitement. I would go nuts in this foresaken city if I didnt take frequent trips. | ||
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Amateur Bodybuilder
Posts: 73 |
I agree w/ lpw - You have some major issues that need to be delt with. I don't know your whole situation but things can always get better. See a doctor - take a vacation - spend time emersed in family. I suspect roids will only be a temporary solution for you and eventually you will fall back into the same rut, so if you don't deal w/ your problem seriously it will never go away. Hang in there brother - and never give up! | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder 
Posts: 1036 |
Hang in there! Depression sucks and you should go see a doc about possible low-test and see if he can prescribe either test or prozac. The cycle will make you feel on top of the world but be prepared for a little crash in mood at the end for a couple weeks. For you it probably would be best to take test long term without ever comming off if having children is not important to you. ------------------ | ||
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Moderator 
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I like the cycle from the looks...but, I agree that adding dbol from the start will help with mood, and Intensity during workouts. Also, I would do the clomid at 50mg's EOD throughout the entire cycle, and post cycle at the usual way of 100mg's ED for week one, then 50mg's EOD for the next three weeks. The Ultragan, though more expensive than anabol will cut down on injections, and I feel is a much better product...add it with the Fina during injections as well....The Fina/Primo/EQ at the end of the cycle will be a nice touch...and for my opinion on Aratest....It ROCK"S.......Peace.... Ranger | ||
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Pro Bodybuilder
Posts: 443 |
I agree with lpw also...you need to talk to someone a therapist, psychiatrist...or psychologist. If you do decide to jump into that cycle though....get hooked up with some anti-depressants...there are so many out there...one type has got to help....I've heard SaME is pretty good otc. | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 707 |
zoloft, paxil..... ------------------ | ||
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Elite Bodybuilder
Posts: 874 |
F*CK THE WORLD, BRO! Do your cycle, get f*ckin' big and ripped, look in the mirror, and say "DAMN, I'M A BAD MOTHERF*CKER," then move on, taking the world by the balls!!!! LIfe's about taking chances, and it sounds like you're just tired of the grind...get out of it and ENJOY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! E-mail me, bro, I'd be happy to help with anything--and don't mess with anti-depressants, painkillers, etc. Adrenaline will do much more for you in the long run! HAPPY GROWING, AND HAPPY LIVING..."Either get busy livin', or get busy dyin'!" ------------------ |
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posted November 02, 2000 05:53 PM