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Big Brother Val Pro Bodybuilder (Total posts: 114) |
posted February 11, 2000 03:06 PM
  
I'm so much bigger now than I was two years ago.. I see videos of myself back then, and wanna fuckin' puke. Sometimes it causes self doubt, even though body weight, measurements, and just looking at me proves I'm bigger... and I know I am, but sometimes I feel like I still look like shit. Is that normal? Does that happen to any of you? Just a shitload of self doubt every now and again? I was a scrawny runt back in the day, and people told me day in and day out I was a skinny guy. When my dreams since I was a child was to be big and buff like my heroes were. So I got pounded daily with words like: skinny, scrawny, lanky, bony, you name it. Not by people trying to be mean, just telling me what I was. And it did a shitload of damage. Now I hear words like: Huge, big, awesome, buff, etc. But those others still haunt me. Sorry to rant... I just get pissed off when I get down sometimes because of how long I was told that I was not what I always dreamed of being. Other times... I just feel BIG. Sorry to rant, guys... just feel like shit sometimes. IP: Logged |
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Rock_Man Pro Bodybuilder (Total posts: 101) |
posted February 11, 2000 03:37 PM
It happens to everyone at one time or another bro. Just keep in mind that you have come a long way and it has paid off. Get yourself to the gym and pound some out and you'll feel better! ------------------ IP: Logged |
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DoctorSavage Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 29) |
posted February 11, 2000 03:37 PM
Don't feel bad Val. We all feel that way at times. It might not be how big we are, but we all have insecurities that harbor and most of them stem from chidhood and adolescence. Unfortunately much of our selfconcept is formed when we are probably at our worst. Hormones out of control, wacky growth spurts etc.. I was a skinny guy too. Took a lot of shit for it and that probably set me on the path to weightlifting and martial arts. In my case it led to healthy pursuits (well, except for the steroids Hope that helps, Keep in mind that we are all in this together. If that doesn't help, strap on some pads and go beat the fuck out of some white belt at your local dojo! ------------------ IP: Logged |
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TxCollegeguy Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 72) |
posted February 11, 2000 03:49 PM
Hey Val Don't let the assholes get to you...I used to get teased alot when I was younger, cause I was the first kid on the block to reach puberty, and growing up I was allways bigger, even when I dropped football, baseball, and basketball to Run those same people bugged me...Telling me You won't ever run in College, you won't be anything... Well Guess what I did run in College and I shut their mouths for them...I did it to prove to myself and them that I could be a College Athelete. Even though I stopped running after a year, I now have renewed dreams of being a college athlete. A friend of mine who plays for one of the Royals minor league teams is trying to get me back into baseball, and a friend who plays football at Texas A&M wants me to beef up and think about football again. It made me feel real good again about the steps and the gains I've made so far The bottom line is that no matter what people tell you, wether you look big, good , or not so good the only person who you need to get that kind of support is from yourself. Though all of your Bro's here are proud of the gains your making, only you can be satisfied with whats in the mirror. Stand up and be proud of the man inside the muscles cause when everything is all said and done, people are going to remember you for who you are not what you are. IP: Logged |
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cpsbigdaddy Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 55) |
posted February 11, 2000 04:56 PM
I know where big bro val is coming from fella's. I know him well. HES A BIG GUY. WE both are Way ABOVe average. I had a post telling the little guys not to come up and try to give it advice. I think thats a slap in the face. We were there once, thats why it haunts us. Its not that people actuall say man youre small. If they said that i would beat the shit out of them. But, its the Self doubt, the AM i reallly that big that ligers in our heads even though we hear that we are huge all the time. B. Daddy IP: Logged |
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chestyII Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 76) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:09 PM
I was once a small shit! I was 5'10.5" and weighed in at 160 as a senior in hs. Two things happened to me that changed me forever, I became a Marine and when I returned to my hs 12 months after graduating hs, people who used to pick on me called me sir. Second, I started bodybuilding and put on over 70 lbs (natural) Now, I still feel that I am not very big especially when standing next to someone who is 3 inches taller and has more size in his arms, calves, legs and so forth. But, I remember one time I had my picture taken standing next to a friend of mine, when I saw it I finally understood what they meant that I was huge. Also, it did help having a girlfriend tell me how she worshiped my body (continually), but that is another story. We all feel small at some point, but you just gotta believe in yourself. Compete, let people see you and the work you have done. Check out my post of better picture. Now, I was freaked about posting that to the world, and have been very pleased with the response, it makes me feel that much better. Post a pic let us see your hard work! IP: Logged |
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cpsbigdaddy Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 55) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:14 PM
Same with me chesty..... I was 165 as a senior and stood 6'1'. A BEAN POLE. Now i weight 230. Mos of it was natuaral. I look at picture of my self and get sick. ITs amazing what you can do if you are determined. BUST ASS IN THT GYM AND IT WILL PAY OFF. B.Daddy Live Life Large and hard IP: Logged |
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Big Brother Val Pro Bodybuilder (Total posts: 114) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:31 PM
You guys really are the dudes, brother. When I talk about scrawny... I'm serious. I was at one point as a teen 6' 1" and weighed 130 lbs. That's right, damnit 130!!!!! I'd turn to the side, stick out my tongue, and I'd look like a fuckin' zipper. It still haunts me... even though I have gained almost 100 lbs since then. IP: Logged |
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Adonis Pro Bodybuilder (Total posts: 162) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:31 PM
yup, im with ya bro, grew up a skiiny little surfer and caught shit a good portion of my adolecent life, thank god the military changed that for me, i was in korea with a guy who harassed me endlessly, until he got me to train with him, I went from a pueny 140 # to 165 # in 6 months, just by eating everything in sight and training hard. I am know 189# and feelin above average somedays and others feeling like im still 140#, until i see recent pictures, and then go, hey im lookin pretty Good!!!I think taking pics are good way to overcome these feelings. Drive on and Fire for Affect... IP: Logged |
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Puc Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 32) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:31 PM
I think it safe to say that bad self-image can be a motivating factor in the quest for physical perfection. Just don't let it get you down, turn things positive. And, if you ever feel scrawny, grab a tape measure and prove otherwise to yourself. I personally have my "fat days" and have found by proving my waist is no larger than it was the night before and my arms are are no smaller, I can alleviate some of the anxiety. Puc IP: Logged |
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kd Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 5) |
posted February 11, 2000 05:51 PM
Val I remember telling my wife 2 things about the gym. 1. Everyone is there for the same reason, 2. No one started at the top The process of getting there is not a straight line unfortunately. There will be ups and downs, or doubting moments. But by just showing up your doing better than the majority of the people. Hell I look at pictures of me from a couple of years ago and I start to laugh! Cheers IP: Logged |
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kbar Amateur Bodybuilder (Total posts: 21) |
posted February 11, 2000 06:17 PM
I know exactly how you feel. I was very small in high school and I am still not "big" by any means. The thing that keeps me going is that after 5 years of training, every once in a while I'll get a compliment on how much size I've put on in the past few years from guys in the gym that I don't even know. And even though I feel like I've come a long way, sometimes when I look in the mirror, all I see is someone who is still "scrawny" or just not big enough. I just try to use that as motivation to get my ass in the gym and rep out some poundage. Just want you to know that you're not alone bro. ------------------ IP: Logged |
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MattTheSkywalker Pro Bodybuilder (Total posts: 149) |
posted February 11, 2000 08:45 PM
BBVal, I went through similar shit, and at the time it sucked - but now I look back at those times (and those people) and laugh..... In high school I played basketball and was never the best player - I worked my ass off at it - weekends, nights all that shit. The years of high school went by, and I got better, and went on to play D-1 basketball. After that I didn't know what I wnated to do so I joined the Army and became an Army Ranger. That's when I first started really lifting. Since then I have increased my weight to a lean 250. All I am saying is, I got more motivated when people said "He can't......", and it pushed me to achieve things. Now the same fuckers say, "what can't he do...?" Believe in yourself and use that negativity for yourself. Matt IP: Logged |
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). As long as your feelings don't get you down for long or make you do things that are self destructive, don't sweat it. The few people without these feelings are misfits and intollerable to be around.