i hate crying

[stilleto]

yet, i seem to do it so easily.

not sobbing, overly emotional tears, but my eyes well up easily.

As i was leaving work today, i stopped to talk to the head of business development at my company. There's 3 head honchos besides the owner- my boss (who's head of marketing, sales, technical writing, tech support, and the call center), the CEO/VP, and the head of business development. She likes me and I enjoy the bit of work i do with her.

we chat for a bit about a project we're working on, and then she says, "hey, i want to talk to you about something tomorrow."
She's smiling.
"I can talk now," I say.
"No no. tomorrow we'll chat." she's smiling warmly. No indication that she's not happy with me, and I know she's not anyway. I say, "ok" and leave work. I get in my car and my eyes are welling up.

why? I don't know. I'm imagining her telling me that I'm going to be the boss of my own department. I'm imagining that i THINK she's going to make me a boss but when i get in tomorrow she's going to say she needs a report on export codes or some other boring crap. i'm imagining that she's going to say i'm doing a great job, but...
and then i'm imagining that she's going to tell me i'm amazing and they are giving me a huge raise and i'm still teary eyed in my car for no reason.
I have no idea what she wants to talk to me about, but whether it's good, bad, boring, mundane, or trivial, i'm teary at the thought.

i think i just want to do a good job and be noticed and now i'm nervous/excited that it will or won't happen.

i'm a retard.

 

[Bikini Mod]

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about.

I gave up *hating crying* when I was like 15 and just accepted that this is how I am.

 

[stilleto]

well, i was thinking about it all night, of course.
today I get in and ask her. She can't remember what it was.

I said, "did you want to make me manager of a new department?"

She laughed and said, no... she wanted to take me with her to go shopping for new carpet for our tradeshow booth.

great.

 

[Bikini Mod]

well, i was thinking about it all night, of course.
today I get in and ask her. She can't remember what it was.

I said, "did you want to make me manager of a new department?"

She laughed and said, no... she wanted to take me with her to go shopping for new carpet for our tradeshow booth.

great.

...classic

The story of my life!

 

[LadyRaptor]

GODS ROT! ME TOO! I found that since I got off the "shot"...that my hormones are more easily "tested" then when I was on the shot (birth-control). But at least I'm starting to get hornier...completely lost the libido.... but now, I get a little frustrated and the tears come a little too easily. I HATE IT!

 

[stilleto]

GODS ROT! ME TOO! I found that since I got off the "shot"...that my hormones are more easily "tested" then when I was on the shot (birth-control). But at least I'm starting to get hornier...completely lost the libido.... but now, I get a little frustrated and the tears come a little too easily. I HATE IT!

huh... i'm on the patch, could that be it?
i don't even cry because i'm sad- i'm rarely sad. Something will be touching and i get teary. i feel like my grandmother. lol

 

[Tatyana]

I quite like crying.

Especially when I cry cause I am moved by how awesome someone is.

I did that this morning when I was reading about this bodybuilder who lost a leg and still was competing.

There is a little trick I read in New Scientist or Scientific American.

It is a cognitive behaviour technique for people who have issues with things like blushing too much.

Obviously telling yourself to stop blushing or stop crying never works, you usually blush or cry more.

Tell yourself to do the opposite, OK BLUSH MORE NOW, or cry more now.

I have only tried this with being annoyed and angry, so instead of just fuming, I let myself get really angry and asked, what would you do if you could just be angry. So I kicked a garbage can

Then I laughed my ass off.

It has been shown to work, clinically, for the blushing thing. Makes sense it would work for anyother emotional response as well.

 

[stilleto]

I quite like crying.

Especially when I cry cause I am moved by how awesome someone is.

I did that this morning when I was reading about this bodybuilder who lost a leg and still was competing.

There is a little trick I read in New Scientist or Scientific American.

It is a cognitive behaviour technique for people who have issues with things like blushing too much.

Obviously telling yourself to stop blushing or stop crying never works, you usually blush or cry more.

Tell yourself to do the opposite, OK BLUSH MORE NOW, or cry more now.

I have only tried this with being annoyed and angry, so instead of just fuming, I let myself get really angry and asked, what would you do if you could just be angry. So I kicked a garbage can

Then I laughed my ass off.

It has been shown to work, clinically, for the blushing thing. Makes sense it would work for anyother emotional response as well.

so i should tell myself to cry?
lol
i could try that.

 

[Bikini Mod]

Hallmark stores and me = cryfest. I have always been this way. I am very slow to anger but moved to tears quite easily. It used to bother me when I was younger and now I feel it is a gift, makes me feel more human. Crying also help release tension...

 

[LadyRaptor]

so i should tell myself to cry?
lol
i could try that.

Tat...of course, it's relieving to cry with a good movie, or for happiness...but I'm talking about the bust my ass for 6 weeks, and gain a lb when I'm trying to loose "fucking hysterical tears of frustration"...which is a girl thing. Guys have a problem like that...they break shit.

Maybe instead of crying I should try breaking shit.

HEHEHE