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Hey guys.
I have been reading articles on this site for months and it seems like one forum says one thing and another says another so I decided to make a thread asking my specific questions.
Last year my wife of 10 years left me and within a month my younger brother got in a car accident and died. I had seen shrinks and doctors but nothing got me out of bed. The antidepressants they put me on made me suicidal. I have done 8 cycles in my early 20's but hadn't done anything in over 7 years. Still lifted and worked out to keep in shape but just never got that beast mode going in the gym again. Well I remember what I was like when I was on cycle when I was younger... just crazy invincible, just wanted to lift and fuck nonstop. So found a reputable guy and went back on a t400 cycle. At the time I didn't really care about long term effects or doing it right cause a few days earlier I was ready to off myself.
Well fast forward 7 months and I'm still running around 1600mg of test a week. 2ml twice a week of t400. I got my life back together, got a new gf, got back on my feet financially, and I'm in better shape now than I have ever been.
Now here is the questions...
I'm worried about going back off and falling down that hole again. After 6 months in the hole I don't wanna relapse into the depression. I feel great now. Any advice?
Also like I said I rushed into the cycle and didn't really think it out and haven't taken anything other than test, masteron and winstrol. The new girlfriend wants to have kids and I'm worried I'm sterile now. Should I just continue the cycle until I'm happy physically? So I guess my biggest question is after 7 months what would be the safest way to come back off, make sure I'm not inferile,and not relapse into a depressed state. Sorry this is long winded but I could really use some help. Also should I add some hcg to the rest of my cycle or is it too late for that now?
Thanks guys I appreciate any input.
I have been reading articles on this site for months and it seems like one forum says one thing and another says another so I decided to make a thread asking my specific questions.
Last year my wife of 10 years left me and within a month my younger brother got in a car accident and died. I had seen shrinks and doctors but nothing got me out of bed. The antidepressants they put me on made me suicidal. I have done 8 cycles in my early 20's but hadn't done anything in over 7 years. Still lifted and worked out to keep in shape but just never got that beast mode going in the gym again. Well I remember what I was like when I was on cycle when I was younger... just crazy invincible, just wanted to lift and fuck nonstop. So found a reputable guy and went back on a t400 cycle. At the time I didn't really care about long term effects or doing it right cause a few days earlier I was ready to off myself.
Well fast forward 7 months and I'm still running around 1600mg of test a week. 2ml twice a week of t400. I got my life back together, got a new gf, got back on my feet financially, and I'm in better shape now than I have ever been.
Now here is the questions...
I'm worried about going back off and falling down that hole again. After 6 months in the hole I don't wanna relapse into the depression. I feel great now. Any advice?
Also like I said I rushed into the cycle and didn't really think it out and haven't taken anything other than test, masteron and winstrol. The new girlfriend wants to have kids and I'm worried I'm sterile now. Should I just continue the cycle until I'm happy physically? So I guess my biggest question is after 7 months what would be the safest way to come back off, make sure I'm not inferile,and not relapse into a depressed state. Sorry this is long winded but I could really use some help. Also should I add some hcg to the rest of my cycle or is it too late for that now?
Thanks guys I appreciate any input.
