Elana
New member
Hi everyone,
I am 21 yrs old and have my very first competition this June 5th... I was 4 weeks out and now I am 3 weeks out. I am mentally tired and physically exhausted. I feel very sad and had to eat... I feel like I have completely messed up..
I am getting back on track, but I feel that since I messed up I have ruined everything I worked for. I don't want to dissapoint my friends and myself.. I really enjoy all of this, but this first contest has been very hard for me. I had to figureall the diet/training out and felt lost numerous times. I starting dieting down in March b/c I didn't know what I was doing and thankfully found some friends who showed me the correct way. I still live with my parents which is VERY hard b/c theyhave cakes, cookies, ice cream everywhere and yell at me for not eating. I still will like to do more of these contests b/c I have a passin for lifting and gymnastics and hopefully shooting for one in nov or sooner depending on how well i do june 5th. I just hope I don't embarrass myself on stage.( That's what I am afraid of)
I jusr wanted to express my feelings that all...any feedback would be nice,
~Elana
I am 21 yrs old and have my very first competition this June 5th... I was 4 weeks out and now I am 3 weeks out. I am mentally tired and physically exhausted. I feel very sad and had to eat... I feel like I have completely messed up..
I am getting back on track, but I feel that since I messed up I have ruined everything I worked for. I don't want to dissapoint my friends and myself.. I really enjoy all of this, but this first contest has been very hard for me. I had to figureall the diet/training out and felt lost numerous times. I starting dieting down in March b/c I didn't know what I was doing and thankfully found some friends who showed me the correct way. I still live with my parents which is VERY hard b/c theyhave cakes, cookies, ice cream everywhere and yell at me for not eating. I still will like to do more of these contests b/c I have a passin for lifting and gymnastics and hopefully shooting for one in nov or sooner depending on how well i do june 5th. I just hope I don't embarrass myself on stage.( That's what I am afraid of)
I jusr wanted to express my feelings that all...any feedback would be nice,
~Elana