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At 14 i stacked weight on which lead to a bulimia path which i conquered and learnt early in life how to diet better than anyone i know.
I am female 170cm and SLIM
At 18 i went on a bigger diet and walked in mornings and got down to 53-55kg not much fat lots of carbs eating 3 meals a day.
At 21 i started following this no carb hype and being Bulimic in my teens my whole binging started again. resulted in lots of weight which made me distraught. STARVE during the day binge at night..
Last year when i was 23 i started working out and eating again- was really scary as i thought i'd gain weight (EX eating disorder deamons didn't leave me)
However a year later i am back into size 8 but i have a problem i can't seem to kick
One of two i have mirror dismorphia i wasn't hit withe ugly stick when i was born and i literally can't look in the mirror at times as i hate what i see.
The only way i feel confident and happy and fight all my deamons is to stay really slim
to top it all off i really want my body back.. 5-7kg it means the world to everything and i am a determined girl always ate the cleanest diet of anyone i know
what can i do? I train eat clean and then in the middle of the night or before bed i can't sleep with out having to eat and if i fight it i wake up hungry and consume so much as you could imagine being half asleep. Mind is not counting calories
It sad as my body is so important and it starts my day feeing gross. cause it has been the same way for 5 years (Since i started no carb) it has got better but still not good for me and my mental state of mind
and i know for sure it keeps a good 5kg on me. i am lucky to be a size 8 Australian but getting tight and i feel all my days hard work has gone to waste very un-empowering to get p and do it all again the next day.
Any suggestions i am thinking its either i don't eat enough or it's emotional like a baby needing a bottle....
HELP p.S no carb diet do not work for me i'm a sugar burner so low fat high carb all the way.
I am female 170cm and SLIM
At 18 i went on a bigger diet and walked in mornings and got down to 53-55kg not much fat lots of carbs eating 3 meals a day.
At 21 i started following this no carb hype and being Bulimic in my teens my whole binging started again. resulted in lots of weight which made me distraught. STARVE during the day binge at night..
Last year when i was 23 i started working out and eating again- was really scary as i thought i'd gain weight (EX eating disorder deamons didn't leave me)
However a year later i am back into size 8 but i have a problem i can't seem to kick
One of two i have mirror dismorphia i wasn't hit withe ugly stick when i was born and i literally can't look in the mirror at times as i hate what i see.
The only way i feel confident and happy and fight all my deamons is to stay really slim
to top it all off i really want my body back.. 5-7kg it means the world to everything and i am a determined girl always ate the cleanest diet of anyone i know
what can i do? I train eat clean and then in the middle of the night or before bed i can't sleep with out having to eat and if i fight it i wake up hungry and consume so much as you could imagine being half asleep. Mind is not counting calories
It sad as my body is so important and it starts my day feeing gross. cause it has been the same way for 5 years (Since i started no carb) it has got better but still not good for me and my mental state of mind
and i know for sure it keeps a good 5kg on me. i am lucky to be a size 8 Australian but getting tight and i feel all my days hard work has gone to waste very un-empowering to get p and do it all again the next day.
Any suggestions i am thinking its either i don't eat enough or it's emotional like a baby needing a bottle....
HELP p.S no carb diet do not work for me i'm a sugar burner so low fat high carb all the way.
