i've been there!
your post caught my eye because i've gone thru the same "coming off" decision myself
its tough when you've done the juice for years, its become part
of your gym persona, your life and your physique, then you make an adjustment or change in your life and its not there anymore
i've been there my friend
i cycled with injectables for almost six years before i decided to see
what i could do "naturally"
conclusion: it IS extremely difficult to stay "off"
i considered doing exactly what you are with the anavar - doing
small 30 mg cycles for just a few weeks at a time
the problem: you're not really off
however, popping a couple of pills once a day is a whole lot different than injecting both physically and mentally
i've now done three 20mg/day anavar cycles since i initially decided to "come off", and honestly, i can say now
that i wish i had made this decision years ago
the stigma of being a "steroid user" is practically non-existent
your gains with REAL anavar will probably bring you back strength-wise to where you were before
i'm actually leaner now - but not stronger
i look and feel a lot better than i ever did while juicing or natural before
being in your position, i can honestly say that short, low dosage anavar cycles are definately the way to go
I KNOW how difficult it is to stay completely clean
with anavar, you get the good things of juice, but literally, there are ZERO SIDES
your hair stays in, your sex drive stays up, you don't hold water,
you don't go into a hole when you come off......
its all good man
take the anavar
you'll wish you made this decision sooner
its like the best of both worlds
the only thing i would suggest is to experiment with the dose
my theory was to take as little as possible to get what i wanted
my cycles have been 20mg/day for 6-10 weeks max
there is so little rebound effect after you come off that its almost
not even noticable, however there is definately a noticable difference being "on," especially after you have given your body
six months to recover being completely clean
good luck
hopefully this experience helps you decide
its worked well for me