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LOL, yeah I know what U mean bout heady... I may come off across as heady, but like Ken Wilber types, who are more scientist than sage, hit me with wonder in the head, but do nothing bout the heart. Like Adi Da's latest book 2 is not Peace was critically acclaimed by Harvard and the UN president, however and it was a blend of common sense and his own genius and spiritual genius, however, U could feel while reading it, it was more head and little heart.

I think Im going back to the basics on 3 things, something that would renew my relationship with Advaita Vedanta, I mean its the same overall message as Kaballah, however I might go with something Hermetic as well. So basically i have limited it to 2 topics Advaita/Vajrayana esoteric Buddhism and something Hermetic, NeoPlatonic, Nondual...

Blend of Eastern and Western. 2 topics and no more.Sometime MM, I spread myself way thin, ironically fragmented attention style trying to learn bout awareness, focus and moving past self contraction of the ego.

I have until February before I move back to University of Missouri for a a tiny/grunt/part in a Social Psych Research study on the Dissolution of Private self and Online Culture. I'm hoping I can impress them enough to give me a bigger part so my name can be on the published project.

Did U read my thread on the Vasopresin Gene and Cheating Dudes, U know it was a set up right, while I believe in causality as being primary force in physical world, conditional reality, it does not operate between different 'levels' 'frequencies', and cannot account for answers to multiple orders of experience.

I spent all yesterday in parents new residence in Lake Las Vegas, 20 minutes from well 'Desire embodied, or Disney world on Meth and Tren. Its actually pretty serene, and tranquil, too bad parents won't let me stay until Feb 20 when project begins. I'm gonna miss the Kato Kaelin, guest house lifestyle I've had with Uncle and Parents in 2008.


Finally, after I do my little inquiry into Vajrayana Esoteric/Advaita and Western NeoPlatonic/Hermetic Magic, I'm thinking if I have time before the 2/20/09 to read some bout Aleister Crowley. Alan Watts said everyone should read his autobiography. So yeah so it looks like its gonna be esoteric East/West/Crowley reading.

And of course since I love to pester U with questions U will be hearing from me as usual. Thanx MM.

Yeah, here is what I'm thining, im going back to the clasics, but wanna learn more bout Varayanl esoteric buddhism, hermeicwdom snd hermieic pracitices. I'lll let ya know.

Maybe Skull and Bones Training? I bet Alex Jones will come out with a theory of that or something like that based on him dodging it.
I have no clue how Skull and Bones, Illuminati, Bilderberg group compete for power, but I had a friend who would go Conspiracy Theory on me and always talk about that.

Have you tried other means of raising funds? I know most businesses (and people) look down upon paganism but it might not hurt to maybe have a fund raiser by soliciting businesses (or other people). I've done fund raising for non-profits (mostly pet rescue orgs) and they generate their funds through their adoption fees. With some other organizations a yearly raffle does the trick. I've done raffles that easily generate $1000-$5000 dollars over a one week period, it all depends on what you raffle and how many tickets you can sell. They key is to network with like minded people and devise a plan that can work.

I agree with U completely. Though I think in general for 'standardized peeps' women expand inwardlyand change, where as men don't and stagnate. Change of topic here, women are more conducive to inward growth, men are not. Look how shallow we are, like I thought I had some depth, but lately its hit me just how dependent on the senses, well putting it in a good way, 'shallow' or evolutionary dependent... I hate evolutionary psychology, even though it is a partial truth.

I think though some peeps are more hermaphroditic individually than others. I think culture conditions the roles pretty heavily, and while the 'real' person has both. The real person is covered pretty heavily by the outward sheaths and thickening of the outward sheaths. So, that said, I think conditioned wise we get pretty entrenced in our roles. I know U have been taught of this axiom, however ,this truth was established in a different 'time' when things interact in a certain field, field being the space/time/knowledge or logos in operation, they all share that kind of 'knowledge' imperative running through that time period.

We all have something in common right now, we are interconnected through the same time period. So my point is, in this logos, its more clear cut whether U are female or male.... I mean we identify with our social positions more than ever. Plus, due to the logos in operation, the 'real' self is so obfuscated that we are cut off from it. Most of us, there are more awakenings now, however are fast asleep in the illusion of conditonal reality. I'm asleep. I got glimpes but have went back to sleep. My point is the hermaphrodictic self, is fast asleep and unawakened.

Yeah I see U are answering it... I have more results to post up, fascinating study.
Women will list intelligence and ambition as their prime imperatives. However in the moment, its physical attractiveness and charm. They will like agree, then 6 weeks later go back to listing intelligence and ambition. Men, well always the shallow, looks. In the moment of truth... Looks. It sucks being a dude sometimes. Women, seriously more evolved IMO.

See that's the thing... like Aurobindo wrote so much bout the intermediate zone, some positves... more clairvoyance, more spiritual allowing, more in touch with the allowing of space, and the creativity of time... some negatives... again not many reach this level, however, we have more 'intermediates' in Kali Yuga... I"m not sure. Negatives were increased sense of ego, increased sensuality... that may not be 'natural'. What do I mean by 'natural' balanced shiva shakti type intercourse based on love. The forces, that operate on this level are far, far from pure. Now, I'm not saying that the medium soul we identify in the present is run totally by these forces... however they influence them a great deal. Discernment is the axiom of spiritual activity. Hell even Christianity comments on this regularly. U do have more 'real' knowledge as Capacity not Content than I do. I sense that, and pointing it out is only out of respect. Lets say I in the present made it to that level, I sure as hell would only regress. As the Christian Saying goes... If U do not bring forth within outward, it will destroy. This is what happens to peeps who do not to a certain degree make it out of the intermediary zone. The challenges on every level are patterned the same, but the content is much different. The capacity, or pattern will always be sacrifice, transcending the prison of the self and realizing all is self or Brahmin. I'm very much locked away in the self. Also I wanna another shot at your pattern configuration, I have Anajali's notes now, intutive capacity is not any different, but yeah, u will re-cognize some tendencies as well as your own possibilities. It will pale in comparison to what the Elders have to offer. However, it ain't bad.

Evolution MM is not linear. Just because a part of evolves doesn't necesarily mean a part is not set back. Any kind of strength is gonna be accompanied with its complementary.
Again U know more bout this than I. Redundant saying this to U, as U embody it more than I do, however balance is the ultimate axiom. Not less, or more though as we tend to think of things, I'm not sure how to translate this principle. However yeah, I do agree, but am unsure that advances on one level to a certain stage are not met with unique challenges that if not overcome, will amalgamate the soul into something else.

Meh. . .we're taught to love our mom's. . .sue us